Two weeks ago Josh and I found out we were expecting our first baby. This came as quite a surprise to both of us being that our well laid plans were to wait for at least a year! I had been feeling a little different a few days before and Josh was convinced i was pregnant but i kept telling him i wasn’t. I thought if i said it enough i could also convince myself that i was correct… only it didn’t quite work out that way. I gave in one morning and took a pregnancy test. It turned positive quite quickly. After one more that day and another one 3 days later all coming out positive I gave in and admitted to myself that this was acutally happening. Its been an interesting time of processing for me. I am loving married life and Josh and I are having a blast getting to know each other and starting out in ministry together and I can’t imagine life being any other way because life with Josh is such an amazing blessing. I struggled with feeling frustrated at first and then realized Josh and I were the only ones I could possibly be frustrated at in this situation! And it really isn’t something to be frustrated at in the first place! But seeing Josh’s reaction to the news he was already quite sure of was such a gift to me. He smiled at me so lovingly and just held me and told me how excited he was and how he can’t wait to be parents together. He always has had a way of making the things I am unsure and scared of seem so possible and managable.
Over the past two weeks it has been such a roller coaster of being so excited to be a mom and feeling terrified of the unknowns of pregnancy. But through it all God has been so faithful to show me glimpses of the blessing that babies are and I am so thankful to Him for that. I am only 6 weeks along but the attachment that i feel to the little one in me is quite incredible and I really did not expect it that quickly. Immediately when you find out life changes…the food you eat, the rest you need, the vitamins. All these are things you do when the baby is born also but in the mean time you are caring for a life inside you that you have never met.
I find myself so protective of this little life in me already. Its quite amazing really. I have no idea if it is a boy or girl but inspite of not being able to know that quite yet I am praying for him/her constantly. I pray that the Lord will keep him/her safe as they grow. I pray for wisdom once the baby is born and suddenly Josh and I are responsible to show God’s love to our child and instill in them a desire to serve God and reach hurting people in a broken world. Such a huge responsibility but when i think about being able to raise my children with Josh as their earthly father and God as their Heavenly Father I can’t think of a greater joy in my life!
We’ll keep you posted! Love to all!

We decided two weeks was the perfect amount of time to go on a honeymoon! By the time we were headed home we were ready for real life to start! 



